Blowing off some steam…

Well this should be interesting. I am going out in the land of the singles tonight… without my husband.

I say “land of the singles” because although I have been with Joe for a year and a half, I am already shocked and amazed and how much I do NOT miss that “scene.” We are merely going to get sushi, but it seems that no matter where we go the “scene” follows us.

But sweet Joe saw my obvious meltdown last night and realized that I needed a break from reality. He has to work tonight, so he told me to have some fun. So that’s all it takes? I just have to have a complete anxiety attack/mental breakdown and Joe wants me to “go have some fun!”

I’m actually impressed that he is “allowing” this (yeah, my close friends are chuckling at THAT right about now). The last night we did not have the kids, we went to Yard House together to meet some of my girlfriends. It was a Thursday night and it seemed like everyone in there was part of a “hunt.” Joe went to get us a beer and by the time he could get back there were three men who had essentially circled my friend and me like they were coming in for the kill.

Let me be clear – my ring is not small and it is very sparkly and cannot be mistaken for something other than a wedding ring. Plus my disinterest in talking to them was abundantly clear, but the sad thing is that a couple of the men who were trying to talk to us were also wearing wedding bands! One of them even had the audacity to ask for my friend’s number. What is this world coming to???

I looked my husband in the eyes and said what most of the people in there were sadly hoping to hear from any warm body, “Take me home.” And we got out of there quickly.

My amazingly fantabulous husband has nothing to worry about tonight though and he knows that. I am so appreciative that he recognizes that I need to blow off a little steam after this week and the sadness that followed it. He has a softball game, but I have to admit that I would be happy if it rains so that he can join us tonight. He’s my best friend and I enjoy him being with us… even when it’s just the girls. My friends adore him too and always comment on how they enjoy being our third wheel.

I would also like for him to join us tonight because his kids went back to their mother today too and he may need me tonight just like I needed him last night. It’s quite an adjustment to go from having your kids 24/7 to not knowing where they are or when you will get to talk to them.

The absolute best part of the night is that I don’t have to go home alone… and I will not be going home with promises from a stranger. I will be going home with the most amazing man that God has gifted me. A man who I look at and can still clearly see the senior who I had a crush on in 9th grade.

Last night I wrote that I wasn’t feeling very lucky…