Do you ever find yourself contemplating what your “ideal life” would be like? If you could write your own script… if you could plan out your days until the end… how would they go? It’s overwhelming to think that this is our only chance to get it right! Do you want to live out the remainder of your days mourning what might have been if you had done things differently? Do you want to have regrets?
This “ideal life” has been on my mind a lot lately because I am just so darn happy!!!
As I have written before, January of 2012 I fainted in my driveway and woke up in a big pool of my own blood – with loose teeth and terrible road rash completely covering the left side of my face. I was asked continuously for a few weeks, “Were you in a car accident?” Since then though, my life has made a 180.
Within a couple of months of my “accident” I had reconnected with Joe, who had dated one of my best friends in high school. A girl who I was terribly jealous of because she was so cute and she was dating him. I feel like even though we are now married I still refer to him by his first and last name, because that was how everyone talked about him when we were admiring our friend Julie’s amazing luck with guys.
Soon after reconnecting with Joe I was offered a job working at the office where I had been an extern during my law school days. It was a raise in pay with better hours and in a work environment that I was seeking. It was perfect for me!
The next thing I knew I was married to a man whose number one goal in life is to be the best husband and father that he can be. I am married to a man who knows firsthand that marriage is hard work so he is willing to work even harder at our relationship because neither one of us will ever go down the divorce road again. We talk about absolutely everything because we both know that secrets and lying are detrimental to a marriage. Even when disagreements happen, which they do, we are thankful for the broken road that has brought us back together and we are thankful for the failures we have experienced because they have made us even better for each other.
So a few days ago I had a random thought… What if this is not real? What if I have never woken up after I fainted and am actually laying in a hospital room somewhere in a coma? Could it be that I am living in some sort of idyllic world that I have created in my head?
Am I in the middle of my own Bobby Ewing dream sequence?????
I love my job and I have the most amazing friends. I am now married to the most absolutely dashingly handsome man who is definitely not perfect (who is?) but who is perfect FOR ME. My kids are thriving and I now am blessed with two amazing step-children who get along great with my two kids and who I love as my own. I finally have my soccer player that I have always wanted in my step-daughter and my own daughter is going to dip her toes in the soccer water at practice this afternoon!!! It seems like there are just blessings all around me and sometimes I feel like I need to pinch myself to see if it’s real. I would never have believed in January of 2012 that it was possible to find all of the love and happiness that I have found.
And I have reconnected with my love of writing. Thanks to Joe’s encouragement, I am now blogging (as much as I can) and have started building quite a following. I am brainstorming daily about what kind of book I want to write. As a child I always said I would be published before I die.
With all that being said, I would not be where I am without all of my friends and supporters. THANK YOU for being there for me consistently. With all of your support, I will have that book written sooner rather than later.
I just pray that I don’t wake up from this coma… because this is the best ride of my life.
(And I may have just come up with another book idea.)